“Blue Falls” was the last piece I worked on, and I became quite obsessive about
those dots by then. I now have an art wound on my thumb from molding too many
balls of Elmer’s poster tack. The skin of my thumb starts splitting, but I
can’t use hand lotion because it would make the poster tack not to be sticky.
Who knew you could get an art wound from Elmer’s poster tack? I now feel like
an art warrior with a minor wound.
Being in the spot of lights and surrounded by the two blue walls made me feel
like I was in the pool of blue. It made me feel rather calm. Seeing all these dots
growing and starting to inhibit the wall, I started to think about Yayoi
Kusama’s polka dot nets. More dots I see on the wall, I want to make more to
fill the space, and be lost in the shower of dots. But wait―that’s not what I
wanted to make, so I try to stop that desire. I step back and look at it from
afar, and then go back, so I don’t get lost in the blue shower. Kusama, who
suffered from hallucinations, painted dots obsessively because that’s what she
saw everywhere when she fell under the spell of polka dot nets. I imagine her
in her polka dots world, and I wonder how she saw it all.
I’m in the blue space, making these dots/droplets on the wall― feeling exhausted
from lack of sleep from insomnia in the last five nights. Then I look up and I
see the blue droplets slowly falling over me. And I think it’s rather calming.
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| Starting from the top... |
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| and I want to put more... |
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| and more... no, stop. |
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| less is more |
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Blue Falls (almost complete)
84"x 38"
Elmer's poster tack on painted wall |
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| ... light and blue... |
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